Outside for Hours

We hit the gym at our regular time today. I didn't work out much due to socializing way too long, but it was fun and we all had a great time. We came home, ate lunch and our friends came over to play.

With 3 little kids running around, it gets kind of crazy.  My friend went home to get her babies down for naps but left Eve to play with Sunny. They played for 4 hours total outside. I offered many times for them to come inside,  but they didn't want to. They play in the dirt, collected stuff, made dirt pizzas, jumped on trampoline,  etc. I brought out snacks and they sat and ate, then back to play.

This is such a sweet age. So full of life.  I really need to treasure this age because it goes fast. The teenage years come so quickly. I know one day I will cry as I reminisce these golden years. I will want them back. Childhood is not to be taken for granted.


Day to Day

Being a mom is so stinking hard. And I don't mean physically hard as in muscle strain and hard labor. I've done that since I started working as early as 14 as hotel housekeeper. I am talking emotionalemotionally hard. Emotionally hard is hard on the mind, body, and soul.

There are times I need to eat chocolate and step away for a minute and maybe cry a little. Nobody ever told me it was this hard, they only said I would need to see for myself.

Okay,  enough with the pouting. I am blessed and that's what I say to myself when I feel discouraged.

There is something so easy about a newborn and infant, yet something so dang hard about a 3 year old.

Today I felt like I couldn't get much done. We all have those days. However, the clean freak in me goes crazy when I know piles of laundry need folding and crumbs need to be swept up, etc, etc. However,  Adelaide really needed me to play with her. She loves eye contact and when I converse with her. It makes her the most happy. As she sat on my lap, I talked to her and let her know that she was first priority to me and my messy house could wait. Not easy, but I am working on allowing my house to get messy. So so hard for me. Here is my little time with Addy.

Sunny had just finished lunch and came and joined us. Later we headed out for our nature walk. Sunny found .35 cents in which she put in her piggy bank, she collected acorns and sticks and threw Rocks in the ditch. Only one friend was outside,  so I waited while sunny took turns riding his bike and then we were on our way.

Sunny is such a social butterfly. Everywhere we go, if kids are around, she must chat it up with them while I wait in the distance. I need to learn to be as friendly as she is.

I taught Sunny about looking both ways at intersections today. Each time we approached a yield or stop sign, Sunny would practice looking left, then right, then if no cars were coming, we would cross. I also taught her to freeze when a car was coming down the street and to stay on the sidewalk.

We stopped in to grab a blanket for sleeping Addy and Sunny grabbed her doll stroller and doll and took her doll for a walk alongside me. Reminded me of our favorite book about "Baby Dear"

My double stroller arrived today and we should have  it put together this weekend.

Hopefully tomorrow is a nice, warm day. I hope I get better sleep tonight and feel Better tomorrow. I Still have some purging of my closet to get done.


Spring Renewel

Ya ya, I know it's not spring yet, but I am in the mood for spring and when I hear birds chirping in the early mornings, I love and miss that, and when apricot blossoms are blooming on my apricot tree, I know spring is coming.

What do I love about spring? The weather is perfect,  everyone is outside and so social and I am looking forward to lots and lots of walks. I ordered a double jogging stroller. I debated on getting a sit and stand but when we checked them out at kidtokid, sunny hated it. They lack back support and she refused to sit in one. The other double strollers sucked and were way to heavy,  but the jogging stroller was lightweight.  Funny thing is I found a brand new one off Amazon for about 60.00 cheaper then they wanted at kidtokid.  With a 40.00 gift card applied to the stroller, I got a high quality one for just over 100. Major deal. We plan to use it on our Newport Beach vacation this April and at Sea world and the the zoo, so I know it will get tons of use.
I also debated whether a jogging stroller was appropriate for Sunny. I wondered if she would feel like a baby in one. Reading reviews, many people had kids up to 6 in them. As long as they are under 50 pounds, they can sit in it.
Also, rodney wants another baby and I am on the fence about it. I heard you are more fertile the first year after giving birth, but I just can't see myself going through it again just yet. I am exhausted with just two! !

Beside the tangent I just went off on, I am purging my closet big time. I am getting rid of so much cheap junk. Shoes,  clothes, purses, stuff that is low quality and will never be passed through generations. Why do I buy such horrible quality? I decided to only buy quality even if it means less stuff. I am happier with that. I find I hold on to quality better anyway. Real changes are happening around here.

So today was exhausting.  Lots of running around and so much laundry. Sunny has been peeing the bed alot so I had to do another diaper run.

Tomorrow will be a better day. I love that there is always tomorrow.


How to get her to listen & obey

A huge challenge I am facing is getting Sunny to listen. At home when its quiet and peaceful, she listens and obeys quite well. If I tell her it's quiet time and send her to her room with the stopwatch,  8/10 times she obeys me and will stay in her room and eventually fall asleep. This is a awesome strategy I thought of one day out of the blue.

HOWEVER, when Sunny gets with her friends and has fun,  she forgets about me, doesn't seem to hear me and this is a huge struggle.

Last week she ran off with Abraham after evening daycare at gym. They were holding hands and running off into the sunset together. I swear she didn't hear a word I said as I called her.

Today she ran off after church with her friend, Alexa, and having Adelaide with me I could not chase her down. This was a trial.

Sometimes I just want to give up. I know she's having fun with her friends. I remenv err being like her as a kid. I had a friend who was very fun. When she came over to play with me, we got wild together and our mom's couldn't restrain us either. I need to remember what 3.5 almost 4 years old feels like. They LOVE friendship at this age. They don't want adults interfering with their friends and adventures.

They have so much energy at this age. As MAD as I was about Sunny running off after church today, I remembered how I was with my friends at 4. I remind myself to not be too hard on her. She's full of life.

I know she won't always be this carefree, excited, giggly and free spirited. When Sunny is happy,  it makes me even happier. This is her age and I kind of love it.

This little one is enjoying her bumbo chair.

 I think I am going to start her on formula mixed with  oatmeal this week. Hopefully she'll sleep better at night.



I told myself I would go to yoga today and I went. Addy was calm the first 20 minutes and then I stepped out. A lady I know a little offered to walk Addy around the track so I could finish yoga. She's a mom too and she certainly could of benefited from yoga, but she insisted I finish and she would watch Addy.  Such a selfless act. She barely knows me, yet she gave up her yoga for me.

I thanked her over and over. The more people do for me, the more I want to pay it forward.

This is not the first time someone at the gym has approached me to help with Addy. One other time a lady I did not know approached me while I was walking the track with Addy crying. She asked if she could run the track with Addy and told me to go have time with myself. I took her up on her offer, a little nervous about handing my baby off to a total stranger, but I did it. And this total stranger was a saint. She got Addy to sleep. All was great after that.

There really are good people out there. For so long I had lost faith in humanity.
Our SUV was stolen in 2011 after we paid it off, 8,000. My Buick was crashed in and it was a hit n run back in 2007 and again in 2013 and after those incidents I didn't really recover. I know there are worst things.

On a lighter note,  this is what I found tonight. It made me feel so warm and fuzzy.
                       Bedtime stories and Addy on floor. Love it.

I can't help but smile when I see these pillows and my precious plant I have had for two years now that is growing ever so slow, but is still alive. Wonder what she will look like next year.


Peanut Butter & Bananas

Sunny has a new favorite sandwich, PB&B. Z I am glad she is at least getting some fruit in there.
Sunny still won't touch meat, except chicken nuggets. She doesn't think they are meat.
Today Sunny was the cutest at dance. She's always cute, but I am noticing how much she's in her element when she's dancing. Today after class she asked if I wanted to see her dance. Of course, couldn't miss her performances, they are too fun.

One of my top priorities asa mother is building my children's self esteem.  Telling them they are beautiful. Even when Sunny has the messiest hair I ever did see, I let her know she is the most beautiful girl I ever did see.  With Adelaide,  I will let her see herself in the mirror and tell her how pretty she is. I feel that even though she doesn't understand the words I am saying, she feels the positive energy from my words.

To be honest, I am stressing the importance of building confidence because growing up my mom did not build me up too well. She was very critical of me, always pointing out things she hated about my appearance.  Too many zits, hair too flat, skin and hair too oily, bad posture, dry lips, hair a bad color, etc, etc, etc. Over time I began to feel ugly. I know she was being a mom, but can't a mother focus on the positive, not the negative.  As if I wasn't aware of my flaws.

I really became upset one day when she told Sunny she didn't look very pretty. Yes, her hair was a mess, but I reminded my mom that self esteem starts as young as 3. I then told Sunny about 20 times how beautiful she was.

I decided I would never be that critical mom. It's so important to list a positive before a negative. I honestly dont remember one positive thing my mom ever said about my appearance until i was engaged to be married. One day she told me my face was glowing. I will never forget how happy she made me feel that day.

I want to build my children's confidence so they grow t o be confident women one day, hold their heads high and know that beauty comes from the inside and radiates to the outside based on strong self esteem. I want to instill values in my girls that they can be comfortable with their bodies and be an example to their peers.


Warm Weather & A Consistent Schedule

Since Adelaide stopped nursing and now is on a very good schedule, I feel I finally have some normalcy in my life. When I tell people how great this new normal is they are often like, You really never had that, that's too bad. We still have a lot of challenges with Sunny's behavior and how to handle her.
Sunny is a difficult child. She behaves very well in dance class and was okay in preschool.  However at church. Oh my gosh help me!!!

I understand kids with food allergies are often the ones who act out the most. However, just when I think she has an allergy, she is okay the next day. So hard to figure out.
So with a schedule happening with Addy, I feel I have more time to spend with Sunny and return to the blog more.
With the warm weather, Sunny and I played outside while baby napped. We got suprise visitors and Sunny was EXTREMELY excited to see her crush, Abraham and his sister.
I don't think I've mentioned that I am spring cleaning and organizing. First thing i am doing is cleaning out my closet. I had every intention of taking them to DI, but Abraham's mother ended up taking them instead and it feels wonderful to have a lighter closet.
I am such a poor dresser. I seriously need a makeover on how to dress.

After 2 hours,  it was time to clean up a very messy room and say goodbye.

We had a fun day.

I can't believe how big Adelaide looks compared to Adam.


Mango Salsa (see January archive on right for recipe)